Ok, so typically I don't like to post my life problems online; but this is MY lj and i want to rant. ALRIGHT; so 3 years ago I met this girl named Megan, and we were REALLY close; there is a 3 year age difference between us. I told her how I felt; I really wanted to be more than friends, but we didn't because she was moving. She left; and a year after that she send me a text saying how she "Didn't follow her heart" because she did love me.. While all this is going on my brother was breaking up with his girlfriend of 3 years; Heather. So, My brother met a new girl named Bekka; who used to be room mates with Megan, and Megan made me into a joke to her. But I forgave her hoping we could get over it. So she called me one day asking to come over and spend a couple days down in town; and obviously I would say yes. So she came down, and I realized she isnt the same person I once knew; While she was here, you could tell how much she changed; she was cheating on her fiance with my brothers friend Chuck, and then called her fiance and BLAMED ME; and if that wasnt bad enough he showed up to my house and told me he was going to slit my throat. So after all that I basically told her to get the hell out of my life. She called me one day and wanted to work things out; and since I wanted to believe she was differant, we did. A couple days later; she called Bekka and told her that she thought she was pregnant with Chucks kid, 2 days after they had sex. Me/Robbie/Bekka/ and my Mom all said there was NO way. So we told her; and she refused to take a test, at this point her and Chuck wernt talking because she felt like he used her [which he did; but he put herself in that situation]. So 2 days ago; I sent her a message on myspace saying:
Hey, We really need to have a talk.. I personally feel like you used me to get back to become friends with Bekka, and that pisses me off. Like really badly; I thought we were really good friends and I realized that you arnt the same person I knew in 9th grade.. Back then we got along so well and when I talked to you that night and told you that I loved you; I guess that made me obsessive. I just don't get it Megan, what happened to us? When you first came down that time I was so excited to have you back in my life and I just don't know what to think right now. Everytime you are here you're all about Chuck; which its highly obsessive. I don't even know who you are anymore; I feel like you use Me, Bekka, and mostly Robbie. Like, I've seen you back then; and I see you now. You arnt the same, if Chuck isnt here you are a complete differant person; nice and fun, and when hes around you are up his ass, so whats the point in being friends when all you care about is Chuck?
Remember the first time I told you Robbie was dating Bekka, you gave me a list of reasons why I shouldnt like her, saying she will ruin my brothers life.. And Honestly; the list you gave me was explaining you.. not her. You ask why people use you; you let them. And thats sad, I don't get you anymore.
She then told me that she never changed; saying how I saw what I wanted when it was all there the whole time; which I know it wasnt. She got her period today; proving what I said all along, she was never pregnant. She knew it all along, but she used it for attention. We havn't talked since.
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